Love is futile

Shitty

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 22:46:17 GMT

i regreat so much and its like i didnt realize what i had done it took me to be treated and taken for granted to know that what i did was wrong and yup payback is a motherfucker the biggest one ever now it seems that once when we all got along everyone just hates eachother my friends your friends my mom you.........
it makes me feel so sad that i feel like i started a chain reaction
of events that caused all of this.

Im sorry to all of the people that i have hurt and all the ones that i lost im sorry that i can be selfish and a bitch im soory that still till this day i will pay for my mistakes and that even if you say "i forgive you" i wont hold it against you if its a lie.

hmmmmmmmmmm?

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 03:24:56 GMT

god i hate the fact that everything i say is a "lie"
i really wish that i wasnt taken for granted
im a desent girl and i learned from my mistakes
and i think i have done enough to try and prove that
i really wish you saw all the good things about me
instead of expecting the worst
i love you and i really wish you could
see that.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 03:09:01 GMT

It sucks to be so angry but it sucks to know
what really goes on when your eyes are
closed and when you open them its to late
to let go of him but to early to stop being
a masachist to your own heart.

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 19:13:44 GMT

its good to know

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 06:26:33 GMT

wow i havent updated in like 4-ever
but um yeah i guess its cause i dont have
anything to say anymore
well??????????????
life is good still much in love and
well as for friends i hardly
have any thats sad!
but um yeah serg's B-day today
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERGIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LATES.

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 00:32:42 GMT

hmmmmmm?
well things
are good and
i realize good times mean
more
and that yeah?
well anyhow
thats about it?

twinkle twinkle baby twinkle twinkle!

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 03:33:04 GMT

yeah no fuss
today is a super day and i
really shouldnt ask for more cause i
doubt it can get any better
and yeah?
life is good too
and my mom is cool but im still
contaplating if i should stay or go?
my friends are super!!!!!!
and my baby is fucking super fantastic
and i love him i do i do
so yeah halloween is coming what should i be?
hmmmmmmmmmm?
but yeah ok bye now i love you papa
muah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMMIT!

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 02:31:02 GMT

I hate being sick i really do
especially b/c of the mocos and my throat hurting
but yeah i guess today is just meant to
be a fucked up day or something like
that everybody is all
pissed and shit but yeah i guess that how shit is
sometimes but whatever
fuck it im tired of worrying or crying about shit
that obviously doesnt matter
but yeah well peace

hmmm?mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 23:46:38 GMT

well im really hungry and i want to go eat already
my stomach is all grrrrrrrrrr but yeah
im kinda scared because of tommorow
but i hope all goes well and that my babe doesnt get
raped, nah just kidding but yeah
baby im sorry for being grouchy McGrouch :(
sorry love you and lets go eat!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 21:21:26 GMT

well today is such a good day and
i hope it gets even better well yeah i think im
close to figuring out what im going to do so we'll
see but yeah i hope tommorow is even better actually i hope this week
is a good week
but yeah babe you know i love you cabron
and your number one HA!
ok ok love ya baby! muah!

hmmmmmmmmmmm

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 04:49:59 GMT

well today was an ok day im happy right now but
i was a little sad earlier
so many things are so confusing and its so hard knowing what to do
when what you want is both its
so hard to choose one thing
and whats even harder is that either one of those things
arent really going to make me feel whole
either way i have to get use to one thing and that
really sucks but i really need to think about what i want its either
ozzy or my mom and that is so hard for me right now
i just hope the decision i make is the right one?...............................
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......................................................................................................................................................................................................................but yeah on the bright side i love you ozzy and im so happy
b/c your so good to me! love ya babe!

thoghts & thoughts

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 03:20:08 GMT

when you try to think of forever
am i the first thing that comes to mind?
you are to me.
when you think of love am i the person in your heart?
your always in my heart.
i know that love can hurt but it can also
make you feel the way i do when i see you
it hurts to think bad about you and thats
the reason why i cry
not because you "make me" or say the wrong things all that
doesnt compare to the pain i feel when i think im loosing you
and the thought of that alone beaks my heart
yes i need to have more trust in you but its hard to when your love is all i have left
to have left to belive in and all i ask is for this:
for you to hold me when im cold, to wipe away my tears
to hug me and kiss me when im sad, never ever change who you are
and most of all to never stop loving me
i love you and i might not show it enough but for you ill do all this and
more.............................
i love you

:)

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 20:35:39 GMT

im so increadably happy and everything is so great and
im happy for everyone and debby dont worry well
start a search for your purse -k- well
baby i love you sooooooooooooooooo much and you make me extra extra happy!
LOVE YOU BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3

Blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 08:10:15 GMT

blah blah blah well yeah today
turned out to be really good thank you
babe i really love you and your so good to me!
but yeah today was payday and it was great!
oh yeah dog poop is gross!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jenny'z house!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 01:37:41 GMT

well the guys are practicing at jenny-jaines house and
yeah today is good and i really cant wait till tommorow
to get our little baby hamster ok
it might not be a baby but still!
oh my gosh life is so so so so so but i mean sooooooooooo good and
baby I LOVE YOU w/ all my chubby little heart
and i cant wait till after my B-day!
love you babe!

aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 04:56:47 GMT

well saturday saturday i really hope that i get drunk today i really do
but i guess we'll see?
but yeah intercession is pretty boring and
yeah?
well yeah

hmmmmm

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 18:39:12 GMT

well im really tired and people here are laud!
fuckers! well yeah school is so boring and
i guess? yeah babe i love you dont you ever
forget that but idont know sometimes i feel like im in a dream
a good dream and im about to wake up in my house?
i guess its so crazy to think that all this is happening and that
i live w/ozzy? but i guess that things happen for a reason and i
know that this past week has been worth it so thank you babe love you!

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 18:20:34 GMT

well yeah testing is stupid and i hate it!
i cant wait to go to the movies later on today yay
i hope i get scared!
but yeah life is really good and
hopefully it will get better and better and better
and better (He he) HI DEBBY I LUV U ha i know you saw that!
well yeah?

hmmmmmmmm?

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 16:05:02 GMT

well school is so boring but having ozzy come here is worth it :)
well Debby im sorry for you being in the
middle and i really dont want to make
anybody feel uncomfortable or anything and frogger
i hope everything goes good
and i wont bother you anymore i dont want you to have any problems
but yeah, hey babe (hamster) i cant wait
till we get one or 2 lets get 2!
ahhhhhh, so they can have babies and we
can give them away or just put them in
Debby's hair :) debby you know i love ya!
MUAH! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
:) :) :) :) :) (lol).............
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<3 ok bye!

blah blah

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 20:06:24 GMT

well yup yup everything is good
and it only seems to be
getting better
but yeah
babe i love you and
im sorry for being so
grouchy and yeah?
anyhow hi everyone.

blah,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 23:46:05 GMT

Well yeah early realese today was cool and i really dont want a nugget ozzy!, but yeah im kinda tired and feel like sleeping and sergios room smells weird but um yeah im gonna go smoke a ciggaret so yea...............

?

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 02:07:10 GMT

well i dont know what to say but yeah? life is good.

blah

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 20:56:20 GMT

well i wished that my mom wasnt a bitch but what can i do obviously my efforts are not enough so what can i do? Ozzy i love you and thank you for caring and everything and i hope that me living with you doesnt change anything between us and that we can still be as good as we are now or even better,Debby i luv u you are such a good friend, Sergio your the coolest little brother that i never had
THANX GUYS I LOVE YOU ALL!

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 05:24:46 GMT

La la la work today sucked and getting sick sucks too but anyhow ozzy owes me to packs ha i won ha ha well love you, oh and debby brown's mean..........

La La La

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 02:16:58 GMT

boring boring where are you Debby Brown Where? anyhow serg you are still a hoe but now your just a silly hoe damn i want it to be 9 already i want to see Ozzy anyhow ..............................................yeah!